I am sorry you are going through this =( I think it is pretty wonderful to have a vet do it at your home! I hope it is peaceful for everyone involved.

My thoughts are with you and your family!

Ellen - Are you ok? haven't heard from you so am hoping things have not had to be done. When you feel ok, please let us know how you are. I know I am worried about you missy.

We are doing ok. Just trying to give Kizzy a little more time with us. She still wants to eat although not like she used to, so it is hard for us to say she's ready. She is just sooo frail. The other dogs have been good about letting her have her space. She tends to wander around so everyone has to be very careful where they step.
Thanks again for everyone's kind words and support.

Ellen, I am sorry to hear that your Kizzy is ailing. I lost my min pin unexpectedly last October. It was the hardest situation that my family has ever faced. I haven't spoken here about what happened because its just too hard for me, but I think it might help you make that decision before its too late.

It happened very suddenly. One day, she started having diarrhea. It was pretty dark, but didn't strike me as alarming. It wasn't black. I held her regular food and made her some soupy rice. She seemed otherwise her normal happy self. The next day, I had to work. I let her outside to potty before I had to leave. More diarrhea. I put her up in her crate and went to work with my husband promising to check on her often. He texted me later that he saw her vomit and it was really smelly. I told him to call the vet and see if he could see her that day.

A few hours later, I got a phonecall at work. My husband went in to check on her and found her in her crate..... She was gone.

That was it. One day I had a seemingly healthy dog, and a day and a half later, she left us. I know my situation is very different from yours but here's what I regret every day. Even though no one could have predicted what was going to happen, I wasn't there. I don't know how she died. I don't know if she was in pain. I don't know if she went in her sleep. It could have been horrible. I will never know. Because she was ALONE. our baby girl was all by herself when she died. Thats going to crush me for the rest of my life. I live with the horrible guilt every day. I know in my heart that whatever happened to her happened so fast that it probably couldn't have been reversed. But I would give anything to be able to go back in time and be with her in her last moments.

Please let your dog's last moments be calm and controlled. Things can happen SO FAST that you are down the road before you plan to be and then you are too late. I wish I would have had the gift of knowing when the end was coming. I would have loved to be able to give her a loving end to her life the way CJ gave Edward his. You are very lucky that you have that gut feeling telling you that the time has come.

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Ellen, I am sorry to hear that your Kizzy is ailing. I lost my min pin unexpectedly last October. It was the hardest situation that my family has ever faced. I haven't spoken here about what happened because its just too hard for me, but I think it might help you make that decision before its too late.

It happened very suddenly. One day, she started having diarrhea. It was pretty dark, but didn't strike me as alarming. It wasn't black. I held her regular food and made her some soupy rice. She seemed otherwise her normal happy self. The next day, I had to work. I let her outside to potty before I had to leave. More diarrhea. I put her up in her crate and went to work with my husband promising to check on her often. He texted me later that he saw her vomit and it was really smelly. I told him to call the vet and see if he could see her that day.

A few hours later, I got a phonecall at work. My husband went in to check on her and found her in her crate..... She was gone.

That was it. One day I had a seemingly healthy dog, and a day and a half later, she left us. I know my situation is very different from yours but here's what I regret every day. Even though no one could have predicted what was going to happen, I wasn't there. I don't know how she died. I don't know if she was in pain. I don't know if she went in her sleep. It could have been horrible. I will never know. Because she was ALONE. our baby girl was all by herself when she died. Thats going to crush me for the rest of my life. I live with the horrible guilt every day. I know in my heart that whatever happened to her happened so fast that it probably couldn't have been reversed. But I would give anything to be able to go back in time and be with her in her last moments.

Please let your dog's last moments be calm and controlled. Things can happen SO FAST that you are down the road before you plan to be and then you are too late. I wish I would have had the gift of knowing when the end was coming. I would have loved to be able to give her a loving end to her life the way CJ gave Edward his. You are very lucky that you have that gut feeling telling you that the time has come.

Jessica,

There is absolutely no way you could have known. It could have happened to any of us. I know it has happened to my best friend once with a 7 y/o Rottie of his. Please, please don't torture yourself with this. You baby knew how much you loved her. Being in her crate was her comfort. She wasn't thrown outside or thrown away. Her daily routine with you was comfort. I can't imagine how hard this was for you, but please, you had no way of knowing. Don't look back. Look forward. This will eat you up if you don't. Remember how much you loved her and what a wonderful life you gave her. From the sound of what was happening I think she probably just went to sleep. If she'd been in any pain I think you'd have known it and never left her nor would your husband. He would have called you at the first sign of any distress. You must believe this.

I know how you must miss her. I still miss Joshie every day and I was with him, and it's been almost 5 years.

My heart goes out to you.

Dana

she will let you know when she is ready.

Jessica,

Thank you for sharing your story. I know how hard it is not to blame yourself for not being there when your little one passed. Just know that she knew how much you loved and cared for her. We know that Kizzy's time grows shorter with us. My husband is more resistant to putting her to sleep. He just can't bring himself to part with her. In his heart he knows we need to do this for her, but...

Her frailty and wandering due to her blindness is what concerns me the most. I am so afraid someone will trip and fall on her as she seems to be underfoot more than ever. I think she doesn't want to be alone. Our other min pin Sammie pretty much stays with her. This is why I think it should be a family situation with all of us with her.
Thanks again everyone for your thoughts