Thank you all for your compassion and your wise words of advice. I always know when I come here for council that it will be met with the years of experience and utter kindness. You guys are the only people who totally get what I'm talking about and that for me is gold.

I came across a box of old memory cards containing hundreds of photos and videos going back years with the pack racing around the fields through all the seasons, from playing in the snow to scorching across the stubble fields in the beautiful summer evenings. They were young and bright eyed, energetic and deliriously happy, with what I always thought was big smiles on their faces. I was so pleased to find these happy memories but it also dredged up the mental image of each one of them slipping away from the vets needle.

Bob, Cristina, Candi, Connie and Cheri, having you all to talk to gives me such comfort and reassures me that I'm not being irrational with what other people consider to be a bit peculiar that I'm still grieving the loss of my dogs.

I was having a look at the Norfolk Greyhound Rescue website last night at what are either used up breeding machines or broken down ex racers who just want some peace and quiet and warmth and love, and I'm going to chew it over for a few days. The contempt and indifference people have for the spirit and service these dogs have given for them to line their pockets, only to be discarded like old clothes makes my blood boil.

Thank you again, I truly appreciate you all.